no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no. Provo doesn't get "Autumn" this year? Is that what yer tellin' me?
Totally different note: WOW giulia is struggling with focusing on her schoolwork. Here's a taste of what's going through her mind: (maybe one day I'll tell you more about it) (P.S. I would really love to have all of those shoes...sigh...one day...) 
And other exciting news: I really love this headband. Sad story though: I went to Target to get another, and they're out!!! bummer.
And just one more thing: Today in Ital:201, I suddenly had all my dreams of studying abroad this coming spring in Italy hit me in the face. I still want to go sooo bad. This summer when I realized I wouldn't be going, I was fine with it and chose to be excited about the other adventures that will take place in my life instead, butttt....Italia is calling my name. Screaming it, infact. It kind of makes me want to cry that I can't go. But I don't shed tears about such things so I didn't cry/haven't cried about it, but know that if I did, I would. [make sense?] And it's not just that I won't ever have the opportunity to go, because I will go [someday]. What's getting me all worked into knots is that's all it would be. A trip to Italy. (Not meaning that I would complain about a trip to Italy.) I wanted to LIVE there, study in Sienna, become fluent in the beautiful language, submerge myself in the culture and the people, and be an Italian; not a tourist.
In my attempts to console myself, the phrase "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans" kept running through my head. However, when I told God I was going to study abroad in Italy, I don't think he laughed at me. I think he kindly smiled (a very loving father kind of a smile), wishing that such an adventure was in my deck of cards because He knows how much I want it. And then He, knowing what is best for me, gently placed me on a different path. I feel like I'm on the one path looking over at the other, yearning to be over there, but knowing that this is the path where I belong...for now. The realization of this was a bittersweet moment for me today as I discovered yet another tender mercy in my life. I may not be getting the brief Italian dream life that I wanted and worked and saved for, but I know that I am being blessed with something far greater and much more important.
E con quello io dico buana sera a tutti!
Un abbraccio, sempre.
E anche un baccio. Infatti, due baccie, come gli italiani. Vi amo.
(P.S. I don't know if I said all that correctly, but whatever.)
6 comments:
um are you engaged?
and I liked this post, you said it all so beautifully!
hahah no kidding rach!
loved it.
I'm making rose headbands tonight, cheaper than target & they're super cute. I'll put instructions on my blog! love love
p.s. thank you for your SWEET note you left on my blog. you're a gem :)
Beautiful post. I completely, 100% understand where you're coming from. I remember having the thoughts of..."not now! I have other plans, now's not a good time." :) Good luck girly!
You didn't do much homework, huh? :) It's ok, I did enough to make up enough for you and me times 4, so it's ok. :) LOVE YOU.
not engaged [yet] girls! If I was, you would know! If you want more details about it though, I would suggest asking Felicia. ;)
Nice work Ashley! :] I've decided to limit my 'research' (that's what Breezy called it, LOL) to an hour a day on the weekdays. More on the weekends. :)
Maybe you'll get a surprise and get to go for your honeymoon. That is if all these hints are leading to a certain something.
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